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The original “Blue tracks” Steve Burns says that long -term Internet rumors on it died severely deepened his fight against depression.

Nickelodeon’s old personality opened on his mental health while appearing in the podcast “Soul Boom” by Rainn Wilson on Thursday, where he told the student of “The Office” that the “urban legend” finally deceived him to think he could be better dead.

“I was in a kind of agony of this depression after leaving the show,” he explained. “But what many people do not understand is that, that during the program, the Internet began to the Internet, and the world decided, or a large part of the world decided, that he had died.”

While the false stories behind their alleged death spread, the without foundation that had died of an overdose or suicide caused the burns that already fight to feel even more desperate.

Suicide rumors “were not what you want to hear when you are severely clinically depressed,” he said. “But when one billion people you have never met they tell you that you are dead, it is bad when you are severely clinically depressed. And there was nothing that I could do with this rumor. I mean, Nickelodeon did not like.”

Although the network tried to help him discredit rumors with great appearances in the media, Burns discovered that fiction was much more difficult to undo what he believed.

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And the longer the lie remained, the more it hurt the star, who told Wilson: “When a rumor like that persists for three or four years, it ceases to be fun. When it persists for 10 years, it feels like a cultural preference … when it persists for 15 or 20 years, it begins to feel that it should be [dead]. “

Then, after repeatedly listening that he was dead for years after leaving the “Blue tracks” in 2001, the star said he fell into a period of “gray” life, where he did little more than drink and isolate himself.

“Everyone thought I was dead, and finally I began to play,” he explained.

Burns could only get out of his depression once he reached a low point in life as he worried about his dying father and realized: “I don’t like how I feel, all the time, and I can’t do this.”

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Interestingly, the character that brought him so much anguish ended up guiding him from darkness.

“Steve became my teacher,” he said. “Every day, in ‘Blue’s tracks’, I sat in a chair and looked at someone in the eye and asked: ‘Will you help me?’ It wasn’t until I did that in my life, in my real life, that things changed. “

In other places, during the interview, Burns explained that Bind’s impossible children’s television presenter is faced: they can be seen as an “unlikely holy” or a secret shipwreck, with nothing in the middle, he said.

“They bifurcan and marginalize the extremes,” he said, admitting that he worried that he eventually “disappointed everyone” when they discovered that he was a “normal” person with gifts and defects.

“It was difficult to be the happiest man in North America when I didn’t feel that way,” said the actor.

Burns previously shed light on his output of “Blue’s tracks” in a 2022 interview with Variety when he said: “It was my job to be completely full of joy and astonishment at all times, and that became impossible.”

“I could always dig and find something that seemed authentic to me that was good enough to be in the program, but after years and years of going to the well without replenishing it, there was a cost.”